During our TTC journey, we have tried many things just for a chance to have a baby, and one of it is religion. We have gone to several temples to give offerings, partook in the fertility rituals, spent a fortune on Feng Shui and even Europe to pray at many cathedrals. I was also on the way to become a Catholic.
I never ever imagined myself to turn to religion. I am not an atheist, but I do not believe that one requires a religion to feel good about themselves as I believe in hard work. But some things in life, no matter how hard we try, it just doesn’t work. Just like there is nothing I can do about my Hydrosalpinx in my left fallopian tube.
During my initial sessions at the RCIA to become a Catholic, I wasn’t sold. I quit after about 5 sessions because I cannot understand why some of them are so enthusiastic about it. But I realised soon after, after being blessed with miracles that led to my pregnancy. They were small subtle hints, like something telling me to google for the word “Hydrosalpinx” in Youtube, thus leading me to find this natural enzyme called Serrapeptase that could dissolve dead living tissue in the body. Which means, there is hope to resolve hydrosalpinx in a natural way. There were more counts of these little miracles.
Eventually, I started IVF, and there were instances where I was scared so I started praying. I prayed to feel comfort. I prayed for strength to get through these. I prayed for wisdom and positive mental health. I also prayed for a successful cycle and a healthy baby. The entire internet tells me that I shouldn’t have done IVF without first resolving hydrosalpinx and most of the ladies either have an unsuccessful cycle or a miscarriage due to the toxic liquid it produces. So naturally, I felt a little greedy to have asked for so much. But somehow, I had strong faith. And now I believe that miracles do happen.
Fast forward to last Sunday, Juvie agreed to go with me to Sunday mass to give thanks to God who gave us our little miracle! It was amazing. Juvie is Taoist and is also someone who cannot stop falling asleep in places like a cinema or a church. But he stayed awake through the whole sesh! I’m sure God felt our sincerity and our gratitude. It was truly a very meaningful experience.
